Day 6

Something I hope I never have to do.

• I hope I never have to bury any of my children before I go. That isn't the way it is supposed to go. 
• I hope I never ever have to file a missing child report. Can you imagine the devastation of not knowing where your child is?
• I hope I never have to deal with my children drinking or doing drugs. And all the pain that goes with that.

Day 5

Something I hope to do in my life

WOW!! Sooo many options on this one! So I will only list a few! In no particular order

1. Become a photographer
2. Become a hair stylist
3. Go to England, Scotland, Ireland, France, and Egypt 
4. Get sealed in the temple
5. Raise 4 beautiful, successful children
6. Live a happy life!

Day 4

Something I have to FORGIVE SOMEONE ELSE for

To be honest, this was the first question I had an answer to when I read over the list. This is going to be hard to say.. well type, but still.

I have to forgive the girls I went to high school with. They DESTROYED who I was. I don't even know where it came from either. I won't get into details, but, they left horrible messages on my locker, sent me horrible text messages. Did stuff to my house, my car, and my locker. I even had one of their guy friends threatening me. I had a girl everyday threatening to beat me up, one day she even got in my face and almost punched me! When I was in Junior high, I would walk down the halls with nothing but smiles and confidence. In high school (mostly my 11th and 12th grade year) I walked down the halls with my head down and tears in my eyes. Girls can be so caddy and rude. And they don't even realize it. Or maybe they do, and they just don't care. I still to this day, do NOT understand why this happened to me. Or why it happens to anyone? No one deserves this. I don't know if this is a wound that will ever heal. But the first and only step I can take, is to forgive them. I do have to give credit to 2 of the girls that actually apologized. They may never know how much it meant to me, but it meant the world!  So thank you!

Here is to forgiveness...

Day 3

Something I have to forgive myself for

 I have to forgive to forgive my self for a couple of things.

1. I have to forgive myself for not graduating high school. It is one of the biggest mistakes EVER. But all I can do is move forward and continue on. Get my GED. And I would either like to go into hair school or photography. Those are my dreams. 
2. I have to forgive myself for being so mean to my little sister when we were growing up. I was so rude to her. I beat her up, I teased her, and I said horrible, horrible things to her. And I look back on that and it makes me want to cry. She is one of my best friends now. And I can't imagine my life without her. She is like my own daughter. I just hope that she will forgive me and that Heavenly Father will. She is a special person and spirit and deserve nothing less than to be treated like that. I love her.
3. I have to forgive myself for all the mistakes I have made in my life. Even though they have gotten me where I am today. If I could go back and do things different, I would, but at the same time, I love what I have now
   

Here's To moving on and moving forward!

Day 2

Something I LOVE about myself
This is going to be really hard for me to do today. I am in a really bad mood. Maybe this will cheer me up? I have literally thought about this ALL day long. It is racking my brain. I don't want to sound conceited but that is the purpose of the post.

• I LOVE my hair! 
• I love that I am a good mom. 
• I love how caring I am towards people. 
• I love how much I love people with disabilities. It has changed who I am, and how I treat people
• I love my "down syndrome" toes! 
• I love that I am responsible

Day 1

Something I hate about myself
Well, I have a lot of things that I hate about myself.

• I hate that my personality has changed. I used to be so outgoing and bubbly and I didn't give a care in the world what anyone thought of me. That all changed in high school. Now, I have a hard time even being silly. I'm much more serious than I ever used to be. I would love to find the "old Cozette"
• I hate that I feel like I have to please everyone. I'm always worried about what people are going to think, and feel and how they are going to act. I just wish I could be REAL and MYSELF
• Which leads to that I hate that I am insecure.
• I hate that I didn't graduate high school. If I knew then, what I know now, I would have never EVER skipped a single class.
• I hate being put in social gatherings that I don't want to be in. I hate stepping out of my box, and talking to new people, (because I'm worried what they will think of me).

I'll stop there! PHEWW! This is kinda fun! And kind of a stress reliever!

30 Days of TRUTH

I've seen this on a  couple of blogs and I think it would be really fun to try it! Let's see if I can be a faithful blogger for 30 straight days!
This is the list.. Thank you to this blog Live Beautiful
Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

9 Months Old

Where has my baby gone?! He is no longer a baby. He is mobile, Has 6 new chompers, and is a babbling, drooling machine! He is my life, my pride, my joy, my EVERYTHING. I love waking up to his precious smiles every morning. And putting his sweet screaming face to bed, after brushing his teeth. (He HATES it by the way) Ok, so I don't put him to bed screaming, but he always screams while getting his teeth brushed. Then calms down when I am done.
Braxton is trying EXTREMELY hard to crawl. He gets on his hands and knees and scoots backwards.. not forwards. But he is almost there! I set him by a flight of stairs today, and he decided he wanted to climb them. Next thing I know, I look over and he is on the first step!! What happened to crawling first Braxton?!
Braxton is extremely studious. He studies EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. He pulls the funniest faces and expressions! He is my little Benjamin Buttons.. An old grown up person in a tiny little body.
Braxton Has 6 teeth now. I just discovered 2 of them tonight, on the eve of his 9 month birthday!
He is eating 3-4 solid meals a day (fruits and veggies. Sometimes potatoes or rice)
He is nursing 3-4 times a day as well... Yes.. I'm still nursing! I'm staying strong!
You absolutely love your fleece blanky. You won't go to sleep without it.
You also still love your binky! But I will be shortly starting to break that habit. Wish me luck!
Here are your statistics at 9 months old
Height- 26.38 inches - 4.44 %tile
Weight- 16.51 Lbs - 3.24 %tile
Head- 17.5 inches - 28.35 %tile
Braxton.. You need to grow! You are short and skinny! Lets pack those LBS and INCHES on you!!
I love you dearly Braxton
I almost forgot this! Braxton is giving high fives, signing more and doggie! He is starting to catch on to mommy and milk as well! He also flaps his arm to say hello! Love him!

 

How can you not love this face?!

 

I think he is the most handsome little boy ever!

One year

Mitchell and I celebrated our one year anniversary this year! WOW! Where did the last year go? We aren't a normal married couple! He has been gone more than 6 months months of our marriage. I was lucky enough to have him home on our one year anniversary though. We spent the night before our anniversary sicker than sick. The next day we ran around, did some errands, I took him to Color Me Mine in Provo. He painted a mug and I painted a vase. That was something new that neither of us had done. We then took Braxton to my moms house for the night.. My first night EVER away from Braxton. It was hard and sad! But super fun! We went to dinner at PF Chang's in SLC and exchanged gifts. I got him a new wedding ring, he never received one, he just used our promise ring. He got me some frames, one with a poem and picture in it and another that said "And they lived happily ever after- Mitchell and Cozette." Mitch had booked a hotel and didn't tell me where until we were there. He surprised me with a night at the Anniversary Inn. It was GORGEOUS! We stayed in the "Palace Suite" He had them put rose petals all over the room, and even had a couple boxes of chocolate covered strawberries. Can you say perfect?! I can't forget, the gorgeous chandelier, enormous bed, beautiful view from the balcony, and our own little "tea room".  He even made sure it had a HUGE tub in it so I could take a bubble bath!! Happy One Year Anniversary Mitch! Love you

 

Mitch painting his cookie monster mug.. and he is adding brains to it!

 

My vase

 

I wanted to steal this and take it home!

 

"Love Birds!"

Albuquerque

We took our very first road trip as a family! 11 LONG hours in the car! It was fun to spend that much time together all at once, and talk and get to know each other even better! We went to the Albuquerque International Balloon Fiesta. Had family pictures taken, and just relaxed! The balloon fiesta was AMAZING! Mitch only went one day, he got sick the second. Which I was bummed about, because the second day was amazing! The first day was all special shapes, and a lot of them didn't launch due to bad weather. The second day was ALL balloons. And all of them launched because it was great weather! It is absolutely breath taking to be surrounded by over 500+ balloons inflated and launching at the same time. I can't even explain the feeling of it! My sister Heidi took some incredible family pictures of us, and Eric helped with the lighting. I am more than pleased with the way they turned out.

 

I didn't post the best ones.. Those are being saved for Christmas cards! Don't get me wrong, these are amazing! But I wanna save a few!

 

This is Dawn Patrol, The have some balloons lined up in a row and they all light at the same time.. INCREDIBLE!

 

Meet Annibelle.. The enormous cow 

 

The Three Bee's (haha get it? The Three V's!) They come all the way from Brazil

 

This picture is for Mitch